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The Deconstruction of my ‘Automaton’…

I was completely imbedded within my condition as the consummate absentee; removed from the staggeringly obvious, self – inflicted single – bedroom  that I had so willingly decorated for myself and  the most arrogantly presented argument was the one I had created for me and my dilemma…I deserved…though had no ambition to pursue,..I dreamt…though had no motivation to capture..I half – heartedly loved with no sincerity or conviction…I was where I had led myself..Waking up to the constant voice of reason  while  trying to fully grasp the irrational process behind my absolutely unprecedented forecast seemed to throw me further into chaos and the unofficial embrace of ineptitude…I begged myself for change!…I required it, incessently and regardless of…

‘How to Lose Friends and Infuriate People’ was quite the read!….Though I found this book a bit tiresome in regard to it’s purely empirical nature, I stayed with it til’ I could no longer afford it’s negativity. With about a hundred pages left, I felt it’s servitude affecting me and the basis of it’s descending attitude a dis – service to the ‘New Me’ so I dropped it like a hot rock! Though the basis of this ironically good book was to inform those in crisis of how to properly allow associates to remove themselves from your circle, I willingly absorbed the pertinent material it had to offer.

Suffering through years of illusion, I found myself in the midst of questioning my facilities concurrent with the affairs at hand. I had found that I was the irrelevent by – product of an unwilling and non – serviceable response system of excuses and quips…Where was this frame of thought to lead me? How was I to advance my position in life leading myself by the plugs and ports that had already hardwired themselves into my motherboard? I wandered through the maze of useless data for long enough to acknowledge that I was completely under the influence of something else…I was no longer capable of thinking for myself and though I had awakened, the journey was nonetheless difficult.

Catch me if you can became my creed…my mantra! Like the Blair Witch Project, my thoughts unwittingly haunted me and as I wept in vain….tears would not afford courtesy to my eyes. I made no inference toward the implausible, I simply allowed my higher conscience to co – navigate this rite of passage! As a formidably custom – made catalyst for what may have been, I was seemingly vanished……….

And suddenly…….I am alive and breathing! Seeing the world for the first time without blinders or indulgance. It had ccured to me  that I was broken though I was convinced I would remain…No longer deliberating over me……In the absolute state of self – defience, I became acquainted with him who had yet to survive…….I am him……The Deconstruction of my Automaton….The ever – remaining, tangible vessel of all that is hope and encouragement!!!!

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